goals - fejj.net

    My goals.
        Current goals.
        Past goals.
    Friends with goals.
    Others with goals.
        Personal goals, improving life.

My goals.

Current goals.

www.fej.org	Help make the world a better place.		Finishing starting.
www.fej.org	Virtual time capsule.		Starting.
www.fejj.net	My personal site.		On going.
www.dirtcheap.nl	Helping charities with free, but limited ICT support.	Currently focusing on reducing landline telephone costs, and supplying donated office telephones.	Hold. Planning.
www.helptracker.net	Helping people and organizations helping others.	Link to description coming or find in /ideas.	Not started yet, hoping someone else takes the plan.
-	Research many different topics, some in support of other activities.
-	CMS program, multi-support server system.	My own custom content management system, and other internet support functionality for possible products and services.	Rebuilding from C++ (which was rebuilt from C) to Swift. Bare framework almost complete, then on to building basic functions and data.
-	iPhone Apps.	A number of possible products.	Have discovered it's not so automatic to get in Apple's App Store, even after paying $100. One simple app to demonstrate I can make apps and learn uploading and maintaining an app, resulted in not getting in App Store. Moving on to others that Apple might find useful or interesting enough to allow in the App Store.
-	Socialize.	Learn to be more sociable, and expand my social circle maybe. But kinda happy with the group now with.	On going.

(multiple)	Resolve financial situation by starting one or more businesses.	Nothing concrete yet. Busy with a few small things that might result in something, but are for just some income now. General building for serious possibilities.	On going.
-	Get a Dutch ham radio license.	Not likely to happen. Even without a license, might join in clubs, and listening. After financially stable.	Eventual.
-	Visit many, possibly all, amusement parks in the Netherlands. Maybe even EuroDisney. Specific goal - every major rollercoaster.	Not likely to happen. This was planned for if eventually made good money, and other goals were met first.	Eventual.
-	Die as a citizen, or at least resident of the Netherlands.	Not likely to happen. All attempts to get a residence permit to date have not succeeded. But still trying.	Eventual.
-	Die painlessly and in the Netherlands. And before unable to walk or basic things like that.	Probably will be a heart attack or something and painful. But if at least in the Netherlands, then I'll be happy with that. In those last painful moments. But really hoping for painless and in the Netherlands.	Eventual. Will look into painless suicide at some point, hopefully before it becomes necessary. (More interested in suicide for others where necessary or valuable, and prevention for where not.)

Past goals.

Many different goals, but none seriously pursued, except 2 main ones that come to mind. Maybe a couple others pursued that have failed or gave up on.

1. "Save the world" / Make the world a better place. Started when a teenager with concerns, then growing vague and broad plans to locate and join as many efforts as possible. Was an obsession, and I spent my destroyed life trying to find any hope for mankind. Now have accepted that mankind is not only going to (almost definitely) destroy itself, but it is now happening. And if I had lived healthy, and had enough money for medical care, I would be part of the extinction, possibly.

Having accepted that finally, and especially finding basically no useful information and nobody working in the same direction, I can only look at the little kids of today, and be afraid of what their future holds. And knowing they will never reach my age.

Some very old notes :
Work with others to preserve mankind. Mainly by making Earth a long term place to live, so we can work on colonizing other planets at a calm pace in a well planned fashion.
Work with others to preserve planet Earth, all it's beauty (what's left) and living things.
Restore as much as possible Earth's environment, and work on long term survival of the Earth.
And so on like - eliminate hunger, poverty, hate, crime, etc. from the world as much as possible.

2. Suicide by 50, 60 if rich. This was developed in my 20's as a response to growing learning of how destroyed my life is. That is documented elsewhere on this site. The plan was to end my suffering by 50, as by that time I would have gotten so far with my first goal, that it would be time. However, if at the same time I managed to get rich - maybe not a millionaire, but more than enough money, that I would try and do things that would be normally very fun, if my life was not destroyed, but just trying to get the most out of it as possible. The specific goals of how I would have tried to enjoy, at least a little bit, have changed over the years, but not dramatically. Now there is no concern of trying to get any enjoyment out of life. I've broken this promise to myself, but am okay with it. And alright with continuing to live for a while, for reasons described elsewhere here.

3. Learn Dutch fluently, and forget English. Literally to the point of needing others to translate to/from English for me. Mostly I wanted to build the project in Dutch, and hopefully that would have help giving it a more neutral image. This was never realistic, especially since in an English oriented country, where others are so anxious to practice their English, or just make use of what they spent 7 years in school learning.

Friends with goals.

Don't know of any. Don't have many friends, so not surprising. With exception of friends in poverty and in need of medical or other care help and not getting it. They have goals of course to resolve their situations, but no time or resources, and reason not to publicly post about it.

Others with goals.

Personal goals, improving life.

Ran across this - http://web.archive.org/web/20190909163849/http://ikwileencargobee.nl/

Long before it stopped.